Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Meet Ruth!!!!


Bryan and I promised we would carry Chase with us always of course but also that we would stay a part of the Spina Bifida Community! It was just as much our family as he was and it is the hardest thing in the world not to fall in love with the amazing children, adults and parents. We had such a small taste of what it means to go through the ups and downs that come with your child having Spina Bifida. The worst part is that it can be a cruel wake up call to find out and so naturally you look for inspiration and this little girl Miss Ruth Zimmerman was definitely mine!

She is amazing to say the least. Every bad thing your hear and read and are told by doctors that could be wrong she seems to defy with the adorableness of any two year old. Ruth had her first surgery before she was even born (fetal surgery)(mind you while it was still in trial!), was born premature with bilateral club feet and has had an ETV (the other option to a shunt that most doctors turn their noses to and say it wont be successful) That is a hard first year not just on her but Im more than sure on her family as well! Yet she is 2 years old and walking and showing the world how great she is, something that you are kind of drilled to accept may never happen when the diagnosis comes in =) I loved to read all about her progress while pregnant with Chase, it gave me all the hope in the world that he too would be a little superhero kicking SB butt! So Ruth wants to show the world she can walk in her local upcoming Spina Bifida Walk N Roll!!! Please all my friends and family reading this donate to her team like I know you would've if it were Chase. Any amount is fine and would be greatly appreciated by Ruth and her mom Sara =)


Thank you for donating!!!!!! <3

A little something...

Yikes!!! I really expected to write a post again after my first day of work but I just have been so busy from work, errands and then tired from all that work and errands! Its nice though, it has taken my mind somewhere else and time is going by so fast. I can honestly say getting back into routine has been the best thing for me. I am able to look toward the future better than ever! It helps that I have the best job ever in that my coworkers and managers are all awesome!!! 

Weigh in.....10 pounds down yayyyyyy!!! I would really like to lose way more than possible before Hawaii but honestly Id be lucky to do another 10 but its okay I feel healthy and I think another 10 pounds will have me fitting back into all of my old clothes not just some like now and I mean with these stretch marks its not like I was going to be wearing a bikini anytime soon anyways!!!


Monday, August 6, 2012

Freakishly Large Really Big Gi-normous Mirrors Scare Me

So, I'm sitting here thinking I'm going back to work in 6 days!!!!

On one hand, Im super excited. Words cannot express how much Im craving some normalcy back in my life, some structure, schedules, hours away from my couch, people, customers who want things (shiny things!)...Okay not shiny things, but if I was a customer I would definitely be on the look out for shiny things!
All sounds great right?!

Til we get to the other hand (the right hand in case you were wondering)

On the other hand, I couldn't help but notice the freakishly large (56in by 42in) really big gi-normous mirror in my bathroom this morning. I really did measure and googled large mirror violations because mirrors just shouldnt be that big right? Anyways, while noticing my freakishly large really big gi-normous mirror I couldnt help but realize that well...theres more to love than I'd like there to be when I look in the mirror. Im getting married in 6 weeks....granted I wont be wearing a white bikini to get married in but still the whole point of doing it on the beach rather than in the court house of honolulu is well for really amazing pictures of me in a pretty dress and Bryan looking just as good as ever so I have 6 weeks to loose well 50 lbs....So since thats not going to happen I have 6 weeks to loose as much as I can while being healthy of course. So wish me luck!

I am 100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000% not excited about sharing this photo but I'm doing it as motivation that I will get my body back to a picture I am happy to post =)