My Half A Year Old

Welp, Liam is 6 Months!!!!!

I knew this would come and just like that here it is!

Another thing I knew would come and I've heard lots of people talk about is when your little sweet babe will start to miss his parent as they leave the room or out the door off to work.....I just didn't think it would be Bryan first or so early.

Every time Bryan would walk in and out of the bedroom this morning as Liam and I lazily laid in bed watching him get ready I couldn't help but notice Liam's facial expression go from Extremely happy to emotionless to pout until he walked back in. Then when it was time for Bryan to leave for work and Liam and I to get our booties out of Mommy and Dads bed to get ready for his baby signing class I noticed some thing...oh yeah it was that my child was screaming and crying with real big fat tears. I initially thought he was cranky and secondary thought it was due to us cutting back on his morning bottle......but alas after I checked every little need this sweet boy could possibly need fulfilled it became very evident he just missed his Daddy, which was later confirmed by my mom whom babysits Liam on a regular basis on the weekend that when Bryan drops him off the past two weekends Liam is happy but when he leaves he is so upset.....Am I Jealous, nah....(EXTREMELY, YES, IT HURTS, STAB ME IN THE HEART WHY DON"T YOU) not really.

(Daddy's Little Man)

It's okay when it comes right down to him being in pain no matter what Liams arms automatically reach out for me and I secretly refuse to teach him "Dada" and only "Mama", so theres that and wine to soothe my pride ;)

Liams favorite foods are peaches and pears, seriously Ill be feeding him regular old bananas and ya know just typical night at The Beavers but give him some peaches and this baby will jump up and boogie to The Brady Bunch Song! 

He is days away from crawling, for now he pretty much looks like he was in a battle and has lost the feeling in his legs suddenly and trying to get from point A to point B and suddenly cant decide if maybe he wants to stand up instead of crawl there. It's awkward to watch and I don't really know what to make of it other than my kid is going to make it a point to do everything completely different than what the "norm" is

Thats the other weird one, he likes to stand.....6 months and he would stand all day if you would let him. Obviously he holds on to the couch or more typically our hands hold him but he loves it and he certainly likes to shake what his Mama gave him while doing so! I wish I had a picture but I am frankly too nervous to worry about busting out my camera when he does this so next time Bryan is home Ill have to have him help me snap a pic because it seriously is the cutest little thing ever!

After a few weeks of him being unable to use his stomach muscles at all without throwing up it finally looks as of today in fact that my child CAN sit. I was getting seriously concerned with this one and still have my reservations but he went 20 minutes without throwing a Gerd related fit or falling over while sitting so I firmly believe he will be a pro by the end of the month as we start getting his tummy issues under control.

He is a little er Eccentric with his musical selections Im not sure he knows what he likes I just turn through the stations until he stops crying if that means I am bumping Mariachi music then so be it. Actually on our way back from San Diego I swear it was the most soothing classical selections I almost fell asleep ON THE ROAD!!!! I had to change the station eventually because every time I got in my car I would get tricked into "Ahh, this is so nic...zzzzzz." 

He loves to blow raspberries, he does not like to be tickled and physically strains and tries to not laugh if I try. He LOVES to pull hair so much I thought about buying him a wig to play with but thought passed quickly for obvious reasons.....he has severe GERD which makes for some interesting tantrums and some even more lovely smiles after, he likes to be held too much is super quirky and LOVES more than anything Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. He loves crowds and staying up past his bedtime. He loves the park swing and he loves people who wear glasses (score 1 for Mama!) Careful though because he has no problem whipping those glasses off before you even see him! (<----Get It? Im funny ;D)

Dear 0-5 months we hardly knew ya, you were fun, awful, insightful, funny, crazy, sleep depriving, wonderful and we are moving onto bigger and better ;)

Super Mom Dun Da Daahhh....

Before having Liam I had these incredible and completely admirable envisions of how my days would be spent. Baby Tumbling Classes, Baby Swimming classes, Baby Sign Language Classes, The most incredible playroom, An amazing dinner on the table every night promptly at 6. He would bounce in his bouncer while I baked all kinds of delicious treats. I would craft all these amazing little pinterest worthy projects after he was peacefully asleep and I of course would have time to do something with my hair and makeup every one of these days. And then I actually had Liam.

Being super mom just DOES NOT happen overnight. I went through a really tough time accepting this and can distinctly remember my too sweet husband putting up with a crazy hormonal me crying about why it just hadn't kicked in yet and just when the hell the "Perfect Mom Stork" was going to have time to take a trip to my door front?!

I am no where near being a Super Mom yet and am every day complete awe of my friends that I strongly feel just HAVE IT. I know a beautiful and amazing woman who has 5 equally beautiful little girls and I am seriously telling you she is so super mom that it will make your head spin! Yes, Sara I am talking about your Stellar Mommy Abilities!

Im still trying to figure out how to transition into this person I so desperately seek to be, I am always the first to nag a person and tell them that you cant improve yourself if your not willing to challenge yourself and yet Ive spent a lot of time being a hypocrite sitting around nagging about how I just can't find time to get it all done. One day I sat down and wrote everything I wanted to get accomplished that day. I filled up TWO pages and quit before even trying feeling overwhelmed. So I have been trying to challenge myself this week to step outside of my comfort zone. I have really found comfort in waiting until Bryan is off and running to the store and NEVER taking Liam anywhere if I don't have to which also makes my day twice as hard I've recently learned. I would cave into letting Liam watch Tv and not read to him if he cried at me. I was becoming so upset with how far I drifted from my dreams so I started taking him to the park EVERY day unless it rains and to Sign language classes on Wednesdays and am hoping to start a baby tumbling class soon as well and oh my goodness this baby sleeps so hard after getting back from being tired which seriously starts making that list look a lot more attainable. I read to him even if he cried and I find he doesn't ever cry anymore if I read to him and I go through a series of stretches and exercises before letting him watch any tv.


I also SUPER TOTALLY CANT EVEN EXPLAIN HOW SERIOUSLY MUCH LIKE REALLY want to cut myself off of social media. Every day I pray for the strength to just delete it and never look back. I don't know why I hold on to it so much. I feel like I would be such a better mom, wife, daughter, friend if I just cut that out of my life and focused on really personalizing my relationships. Its so difficult when social media has become such a huge source of communication between friends. For example I belong to a couple of mommy groups that I literally just feel so sad to think about not being a part of anymore as I have met some really great people through them. Ah one day, one thing at a time.