6 Months Dr. Visit

Hello Everyone, okay so finally had an ultrasound since San Francisco and a fetal echo.

First the ultrasound, the good news is my little man is a fiesty little thing and wont stop moving around and wiggling his toes. He just doesn't move and turn where we could see him at the right angles all the time so it made for a long visit! The bad news is the moment the screen pops up it couldn't be more evident that the separation has not improved once so ever. He is just in this squiggly blob eek. As much as you prepare yourself when your having complications with your pregnancy it just doesn't get easy or feel okay to look on the monitor and see so clearly somethings wrong. Also, you never ever want to hear the person scanning you say "OH! WOW..." I digress, so at this point it looks very doubtful that the sac will fuse back together and they definitely see "debris" in between the sac and the uterus. I wish there was a clear cut answer for all of this unfortunately there isn't. Theres no way to know or predict how things will go from here, the doctors and mine biggest concern is Chase having plenty of room to grow as big and healthy as he can while in-utero so they will continue to moniter him and I closely and make sure we are both doing well, for right now take comfort in knowing he has plenty of fluid currently even with the complication and is growing right on track. Hes 1lb 7oz right now, it always amazes me how they can tell how much he weighs! Also on the Spina Bifida side of things it was at first hard to hear the hydro (fluid in his brain) went up 2 mm from 12 to 14mm (normal 10mm). However my doctor greatly put me at ease with bringing up the fact we are still on the low scale by far and that with his recent growth spark its reasonable for him to have this increase.

The Echo I am happy to say went great!!! He has himself a perfect healthy little heart and it felt like the biggest relief to finally hear for once in the past months that something was perfect and not to worry!

So taking the good with the bad I came out in a fairly positive mood and determined to keep myself relaxed and stress free and have a nice long pregnancy with no more complications. Well be getting an MRI soon and meeting with the team in Los Angeles that will be delivering and performing Chases closure surgery at Childrens Hospital LA, I was so nervous about going there and scared they wouldnt share my beliefs on how I feel Chases Spina bifida should be handled but after reading more about their beliefs on their website about things we'll be facing it looks like we are on the same page and I am excited to meet them =)

Till next time =)