Trials & Blessings

Its been 2 weeks today since we found out our little man has spina bifida. It sure feels like we are being tested. So many outside stressors have been being thrown at us both individually and together recently but through it all we still go to bed with a kiss and "I love you no matter what." I was reading another blog today & this woman's marriage completely fell apart within weeks after finding out their little girl was going to have a disability (not spina bifida) I couldn't believe it, I read her blog so much because shes so positive but I guess it makes sense why she never mentions a husband in the picture. I really stepped back and started thinking about in some weird way just how lucky I am to be going through so much with Bryan. Not every man or woman could go through all of it and remain strong and there for the other one. Without these trials, I may have never really known just how strong Bryan and I are not just independently but together. I feel like he is my rock completely in this and I truly dont know how I would get out of bed each day and find a positive if it weren't for him. Chase will be our blessing and I hope him having such loving parents will be his blessing from us. We got the amnio results we were waiting for yesterday. As much of a baby I was about it I guess it wasn't awful and I could not have been happier to hear good new to start my day. Looks like surgery will be May 8th, which feel so far away but then again these past two weeks has felt like 2 days!

“What seems to us as bitter trials are often blessings in disguise”
Oscar Wilde